Thursday, December 14, 2017

The best band that never was

I played in a version of this band along with Steve and Josh from Brittle Stars and Jeremy and Juliette from Plastic Mastery for a while. The record was never finished before the band started shedding members as far as I know. I seem to remember that maybe the record was done, but not mixed for whatever reason. I had left the band the year prior with the arrival of my first child. The French Horns were the best band that never was.

You can hear the recordings here

Monday, November 20, 2017

Your face turns away

I wrote a song some years ago that borrows from this. I hope to record that song sometime soon along with a few others for an ep.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

Heartbreak Always

It has occurred to me more than once that hurting is just what we're here to do. As in, all of us. You reading this, me having pecked it out on a keyboard at my desk while at work when I should be being productive, but instead am preoccupied with thoughts of death as life callously passes me by.

A nephew on my wife's side of the family was killed in a terrible car crash this past weekend. He leaves behind a three year old daughter, a child a year younger than my own youngest. I can not help but feel like I am on borrowed time; not that my life will be cut short, but merely that I am often too feeble minded to accept and appreciate the present  moment in all of its glory. I am working on it, though.

Each loving glance between my wife and I, each caress of my childrens' hair, each moment of laughter, every philosophical conversation with my oldest, every bite of food, every wave that crashes on the shore, every breeze that cools....I am trying to drink it in and savor it to its fullest. And most importantly, let those I love and appreciate know how deeply I love them.

A film maker I admire, Jon Jost, has a daughter he has been estranged from due to, as I understand it, an acrimonious split between he and the child's mother. As he was not able to see her he set up blogs to write to her about his adventures and share his musings. I sometimes feel like I bother with this blog for similar reasons: maybe one day when or if my own offspring are curious enough to find these posts perhaps it will give them some insight into who I was at the time.

Being a father is one of the hardest jobs I've ever had, but it is always an honor. I take my role as a father very seriously. I have tried and continue to try to be a solid, reliable, loving, and open father to my daughters. I have read through many of Jon's pages for Clara in the past and felt the pain he must carry being denied access to his child. I am grateful for the opportunity to spend my days among the humans I have created.

If you are in need of perspective, please visit
I would urge you to read the 'About' section if you are so inclined for context. It is heartbreaking.
As always,


Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Rest in peace, Loren

I did not know Loren well. I interacted enough with him and knew enough about him to realize he was a special, dynamic being, but never really had the opportunity to become good friends with him. He passed away on March 5th, 2017 after a battle against terminal brain cancer. He was loved and respect by many. I wish him safe passage to the other side, wherever or whatever that may be.

Please honor him and his fight against cancer by listening to that last music he released documenting his Glioblastoma diagnosis and its following radiation and chemo treatments.

Loren also made music as Dubbio Nil and as one half of the duo Hydrogen Arm with John David Eriksen.

Rest in peace, Loren.

Thursday, February 9, 2017

Before I went modular

Going through some old photos and found this one from before I started a modular synthesizer. I sold off all of these to help fund the modular. They were nicer to look at than to play, so ultimately it was not that hard to part with them. I still have my Telecaster which is my workhorse now as it was then. It's just not as visually appealing.